Living a Nightmare?

Chilly —  January 21, 2013 — 9 Comments

Several months ago I had a terrifying dream… I woke up and still felt shaken by it. No, it wasn’t about a big hairy monster or an axe murderer. It was more subtle than that. My wife and children were NOT being tortured or threatened – although, IF this dream was true, it would definitely make them vulnerable. I wasn’t a criminal on the run or falling from a cliff.  The dream did not include any of the previous scenarios from Taken, Bourne Identity, Twilight or CSI…  no blood, guts, guns or violence… no screaming, running, or whispers of “I see dead people”… no shark attacks, identity theft, chain saws, car chases or visits from in-laws…  no, none of those things.  It was worse.

My nightmare has become a reality for far too many people I have known.  And, IF I trust & rely upon myself… EVER… it could become real to me too.  This is a horrifying thought.

church office

Here’s my nightmare: I was walking through a church that is familiar to me but different, certainly not this church. The man showing me around was kind and yet stern.  He kept opening up doors and explaining the purpose of each room: “… this is the fellowship hall… this is the nursery… etc.” – all the while I’m thinking “boring… and this matters to me because?” – and then he said it, the most horrifying statement of this nightmare: “and this is YOUR office, pastor.” – Pastor?  What?  This isn’t right… yet, sure enough my name was on the door.  I entered the office, shut the door behind me and sat at the desk.  It was a big church, big office, and had lots of property… but as I sat in the chair, looking around, wondering how I got there, I uttered the words: “I missed the will of God. I’m not supposed to be here”… I had somehow chosen man’s promotion rather than God’s. I had made a decision that seemed good for me, my family, my career and my future… but I had left God out of the equation completely. And then I woke up.


Praise God, it was just a dream! I’m still living in the heart of Detroit!  I’m still serving the people of this great city! I’m still pastor of Courage Church!

I never want to blow it like the nightmare! I MUST live God’s Will… and I know, that God’s Word IS God’s will for me (and you/everyone). It is my Global Positioning System (GPS) and night vision. You can plainly read about God’s plans, desires, and will by diving into His Word. And, what you read can change your life for good. The Bible isn’t something that you should just read once in your life, but something that you need to read, re-read, meditate on, speak out, listen to, and study as long as you live. The truths in the Bible become more clear as you read them again, and they work their way into your spirit, where they give life and hope, and where they build faith. When you stay in the Word of God, and daily pray & seek His face, you will know what is God’s will and what it is not in every situation.

Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Joshua 1:8

If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you.
 John 15:7

I will study your commandments and reflect on your ways. 
16 I will delight in your decrees and not forget your word. Psalm 119:15-16.


  1. Have you ever had a dream like this?
  2. Have you ever actually ‘missed’ the will of God?
  3. Are you committed to God’s Word?
  4. What’s God telling you to do TODAY?
  5. … start there & don’t quit!

exposing the nightmare, Chilly


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Chilly is a follower of Christ, husband of a queen and father of avengers. Executive Director of Instagram: @thechillychilton Twitter: @iChilly "I LOVE: my wife Netta, our 5 amazing kids, Buckeyes, good coffee, U2, Nike shoes, anything Apple, sushi, my dog Jack, beach vacations, sports, books & YOU!"

9 responses to Living a Nightmare?

  1. priscilla lacroix January 21, 2013 at 7:46 pm

    pastor thanx sooooooooooooooooo much i so needed to hear this right now

  2. 1. yes similar dreams where i’m not where i’m supposed to be! 2.I have been afraid to miss God’s will before, but whenever I stop and listen. I usually stay on track with the big things. Sometimes it’s the little things where I miss him. I get too busy with my ‘own’ day, or consumed with my own issues and forget to love or reach out to someone. 3. working on my commitment,always need more! 4.That’s exactly what God asked me to do most recently (today) to love others, not just say i do, but back it up with actions. 5. i did OK today, growing!!

  3. This is so timely. About an hour ago I was just telling someone how I felt, more than ever, right now I need to be overwhelmingly sure that what I am doing is truly God’s will and not mine or that of leaders or pastors around me. Since this year began, I have felt a heavy burden to be aware that every step was exactly what He wants. Maybe it’s God getting me ready for some tough choices ahead, I don’t know, but I can so relate to the idea of this nightmare! Admittedly, working in a tough place (not too different from our beloved D) sometimes wears me thin and leads me to wondering what life would be like in a big comfy church but I know this is exactly where I’m supposed to be and no matter how tough some challenges may be, I am living the reality of the dream that God has for me. (Sorry I didn’t answer the questions. I was just struck by how much this resonated with a conversation I had just before reading.)

    • You and your family are heroes! I often feel like Faith should be spelled: R-I-S-K … of course, trusting God is not risky but to the casual onlooker, it sure looks like it. I’m with you Tona – I want to be SURE that every single step is ‘ordered of the Lord’.

      Press on mighty warrior!

  4. 1. Yes I had a dream we were kidnapped and sex trafficked in Haiti
    2. Almost because I don’t think we were meant to go to Haiti over Christmas, as much as I would have loved being there, it was about me, not about Him. It was supposed to be a time of rest for me.
    3. Yes!!!
    4. Love students & others

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